Wishing Upon a Star....

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July 2011

34 posts

Loss.

Eff. Losing friends left and right these days, is that so? I don’t know how to handle this anymore. Let’s head to the Bible to see what good I can get out of this crap…

Psalm 9:9 
The LORD is a refuge for the oppressed, a stronghold in times of trouble.

Psalm 34:18
The Lord is close to the brokenhearted and saves those who are crushed in spirit.

Oh my gosh, I suck. I just want my friends back. I want to go back to when there was no pressure, no loss, and goodbye only meant until tomorrow!


I want people close to me again. I want to be able to willingly open up to people, and not only piss them off (as I have been lately). 

I don’t want to say goodbye to my best friend. I don’t know what I’m going to do. No one will be like her at all, and I’m going to miss her like nothing else. I’m terrified of our friendship coming to an end. God forbid that happen. Yes, here I am bawling my eyes out over the best friend who doesn’t leave for another 26 days.

I wish I had someone to talk to about this who I feel comfortable with. I wish I could cry in front of someone and not worry. 

I wish I may, I wish I might…

yeah, too bad wishing never worked. 

Jul 31, 2011-1 notes
“The cure for anything is salt water- sweat, tears, or the sea.” —
Jul 31, 2011-1 notes
Who is this Pettis?

One of my best friends. We had a fall out. :( Basically, I suck. And I miss him. 

Jul 31, 2011-1 notes

I miss my Pettis. :(

Jul 29, 20110 notes
Every time you hug me, I know that it's working, making you mine ...

=P

Jul 28, 2011-1 notes
You know, mistletoe can be deadly if you eat it ...

Om nom nom nom….

Jul 26, 20110 notes
“Love can sometimes be magic, but magic can sometimes be just an illusion.” —
Jul 25, 20111 note
i'm ready for today to be over.

Definitely. Dropping back into depression, tonight. Yep.

“It’s not like you to say sorry

 I was waiting on a different story.

This time I’m mistaken 

 for handing you a heart worth breaking

and I’ve been wrong, i’ve been down,

been to the bottom of every bottle.

These five words in my head

scream ‘are we having fun yet?’”

I smoked a cigarette for the first time in AGES today after work. It felt…so good. God, I hate myself. Tonight is awful. I hate it when people are mad at me. And when plans get broken. And on the same night, it sucks. And then one of my best friends…was joking around…and told me that I should just drive off a cliff. That made me feel AWESOME. Holy crap, my life sucks.

I’m quite depressed tonight.

And no one’s trying to fix it. Not me, not anyone else. I’m just gonna play it off all nonchalant, yeah? Better to wear a mask than to explain feelings that can’t be explained.

2.5 hours.

Jul 23, 2011-1 notes
“Say it’s true, oh everything that matters breaks in two. Say it’s true, I’ll never ask for anyone but you.” —
Jul 22, 20110 notes

There’s this ship I’m on by the name of life,

It’s slowly capsizing, and I’m losing the fight.

Mother never taught me how to swim,

and Father was drowning in all of his sin.

Jul 20, 2011-1 notes
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Jul 20, 20115,044 notes
“You know you’re in love when you can’t fall asleep because reality is finally better than your dreams.” —Dr. Seuss
Jul 18, 20110 notes
“The way you’re singing in your sleep. The way you look before you leap. The strange illusions that you keep. You don’t know, but I’m noticing. The way your touch turns into arcs, the way you slide into the dark. The beating of my open heart. You don’t know, but I’m noticing.” —Nick & Norah’s Infinite Playlist (David Levithan)
Jul 18, 20110 notes
=]

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Jul 18, 20110 notes
Will you love me forever?

:)

Jul 18, 20110 notes
Notes

You were NOT created for your own glory. We were created to bring glory to our creator.

Jul 18, 20110 notes
“No story lives unless someone wants to listen…the stories we love best do live in us forever. So whether you come back by page or by the big screen Hogwarts will always be there to welcome you home.” —J.K. Rowling
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Jul 09, 2011-1 notes
I liked the old look much better. This looks cluttered, and overly busy. It's hard to feel calm, looking at it.

Thank you. I’ll see what I can do.

Jul 09, 20110 notes
I was walking around in a Target store, when I saw a cashier hand this little boy some money back. The boy couldn’t have been more than 5 or 6 years old. The cashier said, “I’m sorry, but you don’t have enough money to buy this doll.” Then the little boy turned to the old woman next to him: ”Granny, are you sure I don’t have enough money?” The old lady replied: ”You know that you don’t have enough money to buy this doll, my dear.” Then she asked him to stay there for just 5 minutes while she went to look a round. She left quickly. The little boy was still holding the doll in his hand. Finally, I walked toward him and I asked him who he wished to give this doll to. “It’s the doll that my sister loved most and wanted so much for Christmas. She was sure that Santa Claus would bring it to her.” I replied to him that maybe Santa Claus would bring it to her afterall, and not to worry. But he replied to me sadly. “No, Santa Claus can’t bring it to her where she is now. I have to give the doll to my mommy so that she can give it to my sister when she goes there.” His eyes were so sad while saying this. “My sister has gone to be with God. Daddy says that Mommy is going to see God very soon too, so I thought that she could take the doll with her to give it to my sister.” My heart nearly stopped. The little boy looked up at me and said: “I told daddy to tell mommy not to go yet. I need her to wait until I come back from the mall.” Then he showed me a very nice photo of him where he was laughing. He then told me “I want mommy to take my picture with her so she won’t forget me. I love my mommy and I wish she doesn’t have to leave me, but daddy says that she has to go to be with my little sister.” Then he looked again at the doll with sad eyes, very quietly. I quickly reached for my wallet and said to the boy. “Suppose we check again, just in case you do have enough money for the doll?” “OK,” he said, “I hope I do have enough.” I added some of my money to his without him seeing and we started to count it. There was enough for the doll and even some spare money. The little boy said: “Thank you God for giving me enough money!” Then he looked at me and added, “I asked last night before I went to sleep for God to make sure I had enough money to buy this doll, so that mommy could give it to my sister. He heard me!” “I also wanted to have enough money to buy a white rose for my mommy, but I didn’t dare to ask God for too much. But He gave me enough to buy the doll and a white rose.” “My mommy loves white roses.” A few minutes later, the old lady returned and I left with my basket. I finished my shopping in a totally different state from when I started. I couldn’t get the little boy out of my mind. Then I remembered a local newspaper article two days ago, which mentioned a drunk man in a truck, who hit a car occupied by a young woman and a little girl. The little girl died right away, and the mother was left in a critical state. The family had to decide whether to pull the plug on the life-sustaining machine, because the young woman would not be able to recover from the coma. Was this the family of the little boy? Two days after this encounter with the little boy, I read in the newspaper that the young woman had passed away. I couldn’t stop myself as I bought a bunch of white roses and I went to the funeral home where the body of the young woman was exposed for people to see and make last wishes before her burial. She was there, in her coffin, holding a beautiful white rose in her hand with the photo of the little boy and the doll placed over her chest. I left the place, teary-eyed, feeling that my life had been changed forever.. The love that the little boy had for his mother and his sister is still, to this day, hard to imagine. And in a fraction of a second, a drunk driver had taken all this away from him. Now you have 2 choices: 1) Reblog this message. 2) Ignore it as if it never touched your heart

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i’m still crying over this…

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I can’t stop crying.

omg. tears. all over my face

brb crying </3

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 This actually brought me to tears.

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im crying :’(

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 brb crying my eyes out. :’(

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I’m fucking in tears..oh my god..

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Me crys.

I cried. ;-;

 Holding back manyy tears right now

:’( i can’t stop crying.

Brb, crying.

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